Me in a nutshell.

I’ve been in a bit of a funk lately. Doesn’t help that I’ve been battling the flu (it’s not Big Rona – thank Leviathan – it’s the other one) for the better part of the last month-and-a-half. I’m at the end of it now, thankfully, but the fatigue has been especially hard to shake. I haven’t been sick like this is probably four years, since I had Big Rona the first time. I’ve discovered that I turn into a giant blob of absolute fucking mess and an inconsolable infant when I get sick now, which is a recent development. I felt bad for Charlie for having to put up with me. I probably would have hit me with a stick.

Needless to say, all of my plans went onto the backburner, including my new diet protocol. I had also planned to start inventorying my mom’s things and going through what needs to be boxed up for my aunt, but that hasn’t happened yet either. Trying to psyche myself up isn’t working, and my brain just wants to scream when I think about everything I have to do before my trip to Terrance in July. I still haven’t even told my aunt that we’re coming yet or looked into hotels or anything.

I think it’s going to come down to just… doing it. Start in a corner and work my way through. Make a list and start crossing things off. I have a lot of hard decisions that I’m going to have to make and even though I don’t want to be the one to do it, it has to be done, and no one else in my family is stepping forward to do it. My dad’s attitude is just to shrug his shoulders at it. Which is a bit infuriating but I want to be sensitive to his grief, so I don’t give him shit about it.

The only really exciting thing that’s happened in the last little while is that for my birthday, my little family took a mini-trip to Kamloops. I got to go to the mall (which I didn’t know had a Torrid – I would have saved a few grand if I’d known), have some Popeye’s chicken and just spend time with Charlie and the kids and have some fun. Emilie got her ears pierced, which she’s been asking to do for a while now. I haven’t done the “birthday weekend” thing for a few years, so it was nice to get out for a while. The first night though, I ended up falling on my face in the parking lot and ripping my left knee open. Thankfully it didn’t impede to much of my fun, other than just being a bit annoying because my band-aids kept falling off in spots.

This was my favourite picture from the entire weekend:

The hotel we stayed at had a wonderful breakfast room that overlooked the river and an excellent continental breakfast. The coffee needed a bit of work, but it’s too be expected, I guess. Thankfully there was a very nice Starbucks close to where we were.

I’m thinking about starting book reviews again. I did a couple of reviews on my last blog, which I unfortunately lost, but I thought it might be fun to start those up again. Get some more lifeblood flowing in this little space. I might also dip my claws into album reviews… but I don’t know how that will go because I don’t have much interest in listening to anything other than William Control, Molchat Doma, and Sleep Token these days. We’ll see.

That’s all from me for now. Have an ear worm:

Morgan’s hair in this video… it makes me want to dye my hair red.